My word of the year dawned on me when I finally noticed the connection with a series of events that happened to 4 Black females who are in the public eye and had a stellar 2018. They all had something in common. To those who read my posts, you won’t be surprised by the first two: Michelle Obama and Meghan Markle. It’s the other two that are somewhat surprising: Tayari Jones and Kennedy Holmes.

Me with Tayari in my classroom.
New York Times Bestseller and Spelman Alumna Tayari Jones visited my 20th century Black women writers class. More than anything she said, what left the biggest impact on me was how she carried herself. She believed in herself. She wasn’t apologizing about who she was, hiding who she was or what she had done. It was of no consequence to her if you were a fan or not. She had done her part to make her offering to the world and that was enough for her.
I noticed all of this, but it didn’t make an impact on me until I saw Kennedy Holmes in her final performance on the television show “The Voice.” I’m not a regular viewer of the show but I had known about her. She covered the Demi Lovato song “What’s Wrong with Being Confident?” And wow what a gutsy performance. Everything I noticed about Michelle Obama, Meghan Markle and Tayari Jones was present in the person of this 14 year old wonder.
The victory, for her, was being in the finals. It didn’t matter what the results were. She had put her best out there and that was the victory. She believed.
In much of 2018 and before, I lived in fear. I was sporadic in my writing. I had loved ones who were ill. People who were supposed to love me spoke cruel words to me and I felt pained from what were intentional slights. I noticed silences on social media about my work and that also hurt. My father moved out of my childhood home, a place that had been my refuge for more than 3 decades. For so much of the year, I felt beaten down. Then, one day, after I fought through the haze of anger that I felt at Holmes’s loss, I finally understood what these amazing people had taught me.
- Believe in yourself.
- Stop apologizing or hiding who you are. (Ya’ll know this one is hard for me)
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It doesn’t matter if people are fans or not.
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Make your best offering to the world and that is enough.
I felt a weight lift from me. Putting so much energy into CARING was what kept me beaten down. No longer. I’m free.
Happy New Year!

Atlanta, GA – Summer 1881
I’ve just returned from Alabama where I attended my first Reader’s Luncheon as an Attending Author. Even though, I was not fully prepared for the extent of the swag (all I had was a $50.00 gift card to offer. I felt such a kinship with the Little Drummer Boy) it was a wonderful time. Many of the readers I spoke with spoke about how meaningful it was to have an afternoon to themselves away from their every day lives. A number of them spoke of children or an aging parent to care for.
Ok. I’ve been quiet about it long enough. Now, here comes the question. Why aren’t you watching Underground? My sincere apologies to those of you who do not get WGNA to watch it—June and the DVDs will be here soon. However, for the rest of you, I hope that you use the comments to post your answer. Call it market research on my part as a historical fiction author who writes about African American characters. I’m also asking because I really want to know.
that celebrates Toni Cade Bambara.
I’m having a fine time writing about March Simpson and how she got her man. Still, I’m reminded that I have not yet posted about what exactly inspired this story. I’ve mentioned my family’s singing group, The Gift of Song, and how they sang spirituals, (African American folk songs), during the 1970’s and 1980’s. They were far from the first to do so, however. In the wake of the Civil War, many of the enslaved wanted to hear no more of the spiritual music that they composed as they toiled in bondage. I made that reluctance part of the character of March’s father, Virgil.